Medication Star Tribune Article

Wanning off prescription medications (SSRIs and benzodiazepines) for depression and anxiety are a huge contributor to the positive momentum in my recovery journey and current state of mental, physical and spiritual wellness. I took medications for about 15 years. I shared my pharmaceutical rollercoaster ride – in hopes that it will resonate with others – in an article in the The Minnesota Star Tribune.

While I was on my medications for anxiety and depression – in conjunction with sustained heavy alcohol use – the highs were never very high, and the lows were never very low. I couldn’t feel much – emotionally or physically. I didn’t realize how much impact my medications were having on my life until I got off them. The world was blah. Black and white. I was always searching to feel something without much success. Off my medications and alcohol – it’s like I’m now experiencing life in full color in high definition.

I’m much more sensitive to lights, colors, nature, the elements – a dazzling sunset, pristine afternoon on a lake or view from a scenic overlook can easily overwhelm me with a sense of gratitude, joy or wonder. Songs from my Spotify playlist often drive me to tears triggered by emotional resonance and connection. A haunting memory from my past often triggers intense feelings of shame or guilt that I must encounter, cope and face – instead of brushing aside or under the rug. I barely cried for 20-plus years. I tear up almost every day now.

It’s freeing to no longer be a slave to the perpetual cycle of prescription medication. Instead of reaping any perceived benefits from the drugs, within a few years of taking them they only made me feel not terrible. I mostly noticed ill effects if I didn’t take them. If I missed a dose, I would suffer paralyzing withdrawals on par or worse than alcohol. Sweating. Panic. Doom. Uneasiness. Nausea. Dizziness. Clouded thoughts.

I’m living life – and appreciating it more than I ever have – to the fullest, which includes the full spectrum of emotions and feelings (good and bad) that human beings are meant to experience.

I don’t have a political agenda and don’t closely align with either of the current U.S. political parties. However, I do have thoughts when it comes to taking prescription medications for anxiety and depression. Think carefully before taking the dive. Try alternatives. Exercise. Improve sleep hygiene. Eat better. Go to therapy. Meditate. Participate in activities that bring you joy. Improve your community. You must put in hard work to truly get better – and that’s much more difficult than taking a pill.

Check out the full Star Tribune article by Jeremy Olson: https://www.startribune.com/federal-campaign-to-discourage-antidepressant-use-could-cause-new-problems/601849698

Also, bonus article from St. Cloud State University Magazine. They recently profiled my recovery journey and publication: https://ourscsu.stcloudstate.edu/stories/nick-hanson.aspx